It's been a minute...or more like 3,568,380 of them.
A lot has happened since then, as I'm certain you can well imagine. Much like my herb plants, I have withered and bloomed many times in the past few years. Today, I find I am keenly aware that we become who we are more by what we experience than by what we do. I hope you will forgive my absence and join me as I, once again, learn to practice off the mat the awareness, humility, and forgiveness I continue to experience on the mat.
Today, I spent part of my afternoon peeling 24 cloves of garlic. It was a great way to get out some aggression, for sure, but it took a bit of both effort and time. In the end, my fingers were sticky, my cutting board was a bit of a mess and my eyes were stinging, only to yield a small handful of garlic. A lot of work for a very small result. But baking 24 cloves of garlic, mixed with some herbs and olive oil, creates the most amazing, fragrant and delish condiment. It keeps in the fridge for a few weeks, and a couple of cloves or a bit of the oil completely changes the complexity of a dish. A lot of work, a small result...in the end, something amazing.
The past 3,568,380 minutes have felt a lot like peeling garlic - a lot of work for a small result. But life has given me oil and herbs when I needed them and allowed me to become something more than I was 3,568,380 minutes ago.
I hope you will forgive my absence. I will be updating the look and feel of yoganoodles in the coming weeks to better reflect who I am today. I hope you will check in often and look forward to sharing a cup of coffee and some perspective on life off the mat.
Jana
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I had my TL a little more than a year ago when my third child was born via c-section. I was not told ANYTHING about the possible side effects of having this procedure. Since then I have experienced heavy bleeding lasting sometimes 3 weeks out of the month, weight gain, severe mood swings. Severe cramping, changes to my libido, severe depression accompanied by suicidal thoughts, headaches, migraines, many new symptoms & older issues are now exacerbated. The father of two of my children doesn't want me anymore. I've become too much of a pain in the ass I guess. We don't talk. We don't sleep in the same bed. I think he might really think I am crazy... & maybe I am. I feel crazy a lot of the time.
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